Wednesday, August 03, 2005
Last Saturday, I went to Che's house for Ate Jen's despedida party. She's going to Germany for a scholarship grant - galing galing! :) Good luck, Ms. Liza Reyes! It was nothing really grand, just dinner with lots of food (sarap talaga nung lumpia/chicken pie from Ate Honey) and most of their visitors were family and close friends. Grabe lalo kong na-realize na ang tanda ko na! I saw Ate Jing's children and they're all grown up na! Super adorable ni Ninay, so sweet and so friendly to everyone, and oh, the cute way she fell asleep sa rocking chair. Aaaaaw..

So after dinner, the four of us - Arlene, Ivy, Che and I went to the second floor for our usual it's-a-girl-thing kwentuhan. Earlier pala that afternoon, Hopia (sorry Che, couldn't think of a better pseudonym. Hehe...) dropped by Che's house. Hmmm... Actually, that was the first time I saw Che since things "started to get serious", so I was quite surprised that their level of "friendship" had this "sparkle" effect on her already. And though she wouldn't admit that something special was already going on (yes, MU is an appropriate term), I know better. A guy won't show up at your doorstep one afternoon, with matching suhol for the rents, and make chika to your mom for nothing. A "friend" won't call you every single morning just to say have a nice day or ingat. And mind you, a relationship between a guy and a girl can NEVER be platonic. At a certain point, one is always bound to give in.

Sometimes guys can be really selfish. They want to have the best of both worlds! Kasi they can be real cowards when it comes to relationships. They can't make up their minds that's why they let the girls suffer. I believe that's the most unfair thing a man could ever do to a woman - to let her fall when he doesn't intend to catch her. While I admit that friendship could be a strong foundation for a relationship, it has its limits din, especially when there's another "problem" involved, if you know what I mean. I'm no player and my friends can well testify to that. But in cases like these, you have to learn how to control your feelings e, learn to play the game. Kasi kung ikaw unang bumigay, kung ikaw ang mas maraming na-invest na feelings, talo ka. Hmmm... I'm not trying to be the love guru here. Love, as they say nga, doesn't mind the mind. Haha! But seriously, I hope that whatever happens, it's really love - in the truest, purest meaning.

Heck, so this is how it feels like to talk to me back then when I was all baliw about those jerks. Hehe.. Hindi ako bitter ha. :)