Tuesday, August 30, 2005
The other night, I woke up at 2am (I'm having trouble with sleep these days - guess it's because I'm missing Jax so much) and opened my TV just in time to catch the last part of the last episode from the last season of SaTC . It was when Big went all the way to Paris to see Carrie and told her

"It's you, Carrie."

Just like that. I can't get over that line! Three simple little words yet when you hear the one you love say those words to you you know it's impossible for your heart not to melt. (Of course he'll have to change "Carrie" to your name, silly!) I remember my reaction when I first watched that episode - I was in pure shock. Who would've thought they'd really end up with each other after all? Ah life.. always full of surprises. I hope mine gets filled with good ones. As if!

Wednesday, August 24, 2005
Classic lines that are short but have so much meaning to it:

1. What you don't know won't hurt you.
2. What goes around comes around.
3. Acceptance is everything.
4. Good things come to those who wait.
5. Expect the unexpected.
6. The best things in life are free.
7. Everything must come to an end.
8. Listen to what your heart desires.
9. If it's not for you, it's not for you.
10. Love hurts.

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

Got this from Face Analyzer
See the resemblance? =)

Monday, August 22, 2005
Grrr... Bakit ba merong girls na papansin? I mean, if I know a guy friend is attached (obvious sa pic nya sa friendster, magkasama pa sila ng girlfriend nya), I wouldn't be sending him sweetie messages or give him UNSOLICITED testimonials once a month! Lalo na siguro kung ex ako ng guy. Respect naman dun sa bagong girlfriend. I just don't see the point.

Oo na, selosa na ako. So shoot me.

Tuesday, August 16, 2005
I'm not a Greenday fan, but I kinda like this song. It's been playing in my head since this morning...

Summer has come and passed ,the innocent can never last.
Wake me up when September ends.
Like my fathers come to pass,seven years has gone so fast.
Wake me up when September ends.
Here comes the rain again,falling from the stars.
Drenched in my pain again,becoming who we are.
As my memory rests,but never forgets what I lost.
Wake me up when September ends.
Summer has come to pass,the innocent can never last.
Wake me up when September ends.
Ring out the bells again,like we did when Spring began.
Wake me up when September ends.
Here comes the rain again,falling from the stars.
Drenched in my pain again,becoming who we are.
As my memory rests,but never forgets what I lost.
Wake me up when September ends.
Summer has come and pass,the innocent can never last.
Wake me up when September ends.
Like my fathers come and pass,twenty years has gone so fast.
Wake me up when September ends.
Wake me up when September ends.
Wake me up when September ends.

Monday, August 15, 2005

Wednesday, August 10, 2005
Entropy - a measure of the degree of disorder and randomness within a system; high entropy levels are disordered states, low entropy levels are characteristic of ordered states.

Define the system: (the current status of) my brain

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I've been hearing a lot of revivals and old songs lately (actually, just last friday since it was friday madness at the magic). Here are some of the songs I found myself reacting to:

1. Kiss - Couldn't stop smiling remembering the last Indakan I watched with the theme "Testosterone Overload". (Uhm, technically, it wasn't the last pala but then the REAL last time I watched Engg Week can't be considered watching anymore cause I was "working" with the ESC.) I'm not really a die-hard KEM-er but I must admit that their performance was great - one of those times I feel proud for being a mekirat.

2. Tell Me Where It Hurts - Reminds me of MYMP's show at Suburbia I watched a few weeks ago with Jax. I can still recall writing down the lyrics in my binder back when I was a highschool freshie. Yep, that's how baduy we were N years ago.

3. I Love You, Goodbye - Picture this: pillows drenched in tears, sleepless nights, waking up with dark circles around your eyes, and endless "drama series" with your closest girl friends - first thing that comes to mind upon hearing the song. Naisip ko, matagal-tagal na din akong hindi nag-ra-rant about being single and alone. Don't get me wrong, I am SO not missing those stuff and I'm NOT anywhere near the inarte mode right now. It just makes me more thankful that I have Jax now.

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Last Saturday, I had dinner with Jax at Plato Platina. While waiting for our food, we were debating whether or not the girl and guy next to our table were a couple (meaning, boyfriend-girlfriend). They possessed the characteristics of two people in the ligawan stage: First, no contact - they were at least 10 inches apart the whole time. Check. Presence of awkward moments where they both have nothing to say. Check. The girl was dressed to impress. Check. Both were so prim and proper. Check. Of course we just based these criteria on our own definitions of the said phase.

So anyway, they left the place holding hands, which confirms that we were both dead wrong! That is, unless they tend to do that despite they're being not "officially together"?!? Oh well, different strokes for different folks. D lahat ng mag-boyplen kasing OA namin humalukipkip sa isa't isa! Hehehe...

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For some reason, I found myself staring at Don and Jo's hands locked with each other while we were in an elevator last Sunday. (I guess I'm not used to seeing my brother actually holding hands with a girl and actually having a girlfriend!) Then I began to wonder.. pag kami ba ni Jax nagho-holding hands, whose hand is on top? Naisip ko, could it mean anything? Something like the person whose hand is on top is the person who is more domineering in the relationship? Figured my hand is always under Jax's. Hmmm.. ayoko na ngang mag-interpret!

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Today's my second day in my Adobe Photoshop training. Looking forward to it! Yesterday I learned to put another person who's not in the picture in the picture. (Gets?) I think we'll be discussing colors, layers, and effects today. Totally kewl!!! I'm hoping we get to print all the pictures we did from the workshop on our last day. :)

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Kanina when I woke up, it was still dark you'd think it's just 5am. (It was 7am and I was seriously late for work.) I miss the sun! Not that I'm THAT fond of the sun.. pero it's better for me than seeing mud puddles in the streets in the morning. Ugh! Pero in fairness, I find it difficult to get up early these days. Huy, parang ang sarap ng hot choco. I hope Ms Ria & I have time to go to Starbucks before my training.

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Sino ba kasi ang nag-imbento ng term na "boylet"? If you're hearing this for the first time, then you must've come from some other universe. Naalala ko first time ko to narinig kay Pia, nung second year highschool. Come to think of it, isn't this supposed to (literally) mean "small boy"?? Parang piglet, o kya droplet. Grrrr... This term is now getting me into trouble dahil sa sobrang sanay na ko na sa paggamit sa kanya. Kaya kahit tuloy d naman applicable e... Kainis. Wala po akong boylet other than Jax (he's not even considered my boylet, he's my man, my ONLY partner) and I don't intend to have one.

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My legs are killing me. Aaargh! OA kasi ng AC dito sa R&D e. And ang hirap pa magsalita & kumain cause I bit my tongue last night while eating tuna sandwich. As in nag-bleed sya ha. Now I feel like there's some sort of bulky element stuck inside my mouth.

Monday, August 08, 2005

Friday, August 05, 2005
Today I woke up with a wave of sadness rushing over me. I know I should stop being scared and paranoid. I should let things be. Maybe I should stop doing things so I could expect to hear or feel what I want to. Maybe I should learn to wait. Maybe I should allow things to happen naturally. Maybe I should stop trying too hard and accept whatever comes my way. Maybe I'm over-analyzing again. Oh darn... can't help it.

Thursday, August 04, 2005
I know you're strong. And I know you will never EVER let me catch you at your weakest point. You have always been like that when something starts to turn sour. Sometimes I don't know if I should feel glad that you don't want to be a burden to me (which is really not), or insulted that you don't expect me to be of any help anyway. I just thought that we're a team, and aren't teammates supposed to know what's going on with each other? You may be going through a lot right now. Or maybe you don't give a damn with whatever's the problem. How am I supposed to know, right? I'm totally clueless. I want to tell you that it's ok to be scared or off-balanced or confused. It's ok to show me how you feel. This is me! It's not like I'm gonna judge you or anything. But well, you're you - that's how you are and that's how you'll always be. I, on the other hand, will just be right here. I just want to make that clear.

Wednesday, August 03, 2005
Last Saturday, I went to Che's house for Ate Jen's despedida party. She's going to Germany for a scholarship grant - galing galing! :) Good luck, Ms. Liza Reyes! It was nothing really grand, just dinner with lots of food (sarap talaga nung lumpia/chicken pie from Ate Honey) and most of their visitors were family and close friends. Grabe lalo kong na-realize na ang tanda ko na! I saw Ate Jing's children and they're all grown up na! Super adorable ni Ninay, so sweet and so friendly to everyone, and oh, the cute way she fell asleep sa rocking chair. Aaaaaw..

So after dinner, the four of us - Arlene, Ivy, Che and I went to the second floor for our usual it's-a-girl-thing kwentuhan. Earlier pala that afternoon, Hopia (sorry Che, couldn't think of a better pseudonym. Hehe...) dropped by Che's house. Hmmm... Actually, that was the first time I saw Che since things "started to get serious", so I was quite surprised that their level of "friendship" had this "sparkle" effect on her already. And though she wouldn't admit that something special was already going on (yes, MU is an appropriate term), I know better. A guy won't show up at your doorstep one afternoon, with matching suhol for the rents, and make chika to your mom for nothing. A "friend" won't call you every single morning just to say have a nice day or ingat. And mind you, a relationship between a guy and a girl can NEVER be platonic. At a certain point, one is always bound to give in.

Sometimes guys can be really selfish. They want to have the best of both worlds! Kasi they can be real cowards when it comes to relationships. They can't make up their minds that's why they let the girls suffer. I believe that's the most unfair thing a man could ever do to a woman - to let her fall when he doesn't intend to catch her. While I admit that friendship could be a strong foundation for a relationship, it has its limits din, especially when there's another "problem" involved, if you know what I mean. I'm no player and my friends can well testify to that. But in cases like these, you have to learn how to control your feelings e, learn to play the game. Kasi kung ikaw unang bumigay, kung ikaw ang mas maraming na-invest na feelings, talo ka. Hmmm... I'm not trying to be the love guru here. Love, as they say nga, doesn't mind the mind. Haha! But seriously, I hope that whatever happens, it's really love - in the truest, purest meaning.

Heck, so this is how it feels like to talk to me back then when I was all baliw about those jerks. Hehe.. Hindi ako bitter ha. :)