Me Not Like Ice Queen
Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Once again, "it's been a while".

I spent too much time in the car today going all over the metro that I had the chance to think and realize that I've been living my life no different from the wind on a thunderstorm - fast. Too fast, in fact, that I haven't had the chance to stop, think, ponder, reflect on the things that are happening. It's like I'm always on my toes. Everything has to be done now - people to talk and listen to, places to visit, work to finish... I can't even remember the last time I wasn't dashing out the door, in a hurry to be some place, able to put make up on and took time to dress up and look nice. I was (am) perpetually in a rush.

Just now, it hit me: I'm too stressed out. And what's more scary is that, I was too busy to even understand that I am. It didn't sink in. It didn't register. I have turned NUMB.

Having realized that, I declare this week the take-it-easy week. It actually coincides with my boss being on paternal leave all week, which is a good thing (or a good sign). Enough of dreaming about my CER's and Infra Projects. Enough of emotional rollercoasters. Enough of expectations. Enough of worrywart-ing. This time it's gonna be me-time. This time I'm giving myself the license to be selfishly in love with myself.

***

I should've switched to HBO a half and hour ago. I missed Rumor Has It! I was just in time to catch this line:

"I'm not here to tell you I can't live without you. I can live without you. I just don't want to."

Aaw... *tear*

@ 7:08 PM



almay here. i'm 25 and act like it when the stars are aligned. i'm currently attached (and loving it!) to the most spoiled big boy in the world aka jax. i'm an augustinian and an iska. i'm not a party person, more of the dinner-coffee type. i miss dancing though (it's been ages!). i'm a self-confessed crybaby and drama queen. i talk a lot, often even in a language only i could understand. recently, i've turned into that boyish kid. i love cars. i like driving, sometimes alone when i want to get away and think. i have a sweet tooth. give me chocolates with almonds and blueberry cheesecake and i'm yours forever.

(someday soon) i'd like to: swim in the pacific ocean. ride a hot air balloon. be (and drive) in a real racing circuit. sing with a band. have a month-long vacation without having to think about work. see the egyptian pyramids. lie in a bed of roses, literally. climb a mountain. have my own butterfly garden. complete my bath and body collection. finish reading the Bible, cover to cover. be in the set of grey's anatomy. go on a totally unplanned road trip. learn three other languages.



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